Spectator turned Adventure Seeker Left--me at 20 years old and a size 28. Right--me last year. |
Lost in search of Adventure
I remember being at a very young age and longing for
adventure. My parents signed me up for Brownies (Girls Scouts) and I was under
the impression we’d go on wilderness hikes, camp, and maybe even go mountain
climbing! That’s what I saw the kids doing in the Boy Scout commercials; I assumed we’d get to do that too. Instead I
learned how to sew on a button and chop an onion. It was crushingly
disappointing.
I wanted to be an archaeologist like Indiana Jones and go on
amazing adventures. Or play Dukes of Hazard and get into mischief running from
Boss Hog. The other girls my age wanted to braid hair or play dress-up. Even
playing sports, although physical and challenging, was unfulfilling. I wanted
adventure, not uniforms and soccer balls.
I didn’t quite fit in.
Going into my teens and early twenties, I lost myself, never
being able to find the right challenge to inspire my personhood.
Like many others and for many various reasons, I ended up
eating. A lot. Once I hit 320 pounds at the age of 23, I stopped weighing
myself. I felt a flicker of panic knowing that I was about to surpass the maximum size at clothing stores and already couldn’t fit into booths at
restaurants. But I didn’t know how to change the course of my life. It seemed
useless, like using a pebble to damn the rushing force of the Niagara
Falls.
Then two things happened: Flipping through the channels on a
Sunday afternoon I came across an interesting show that rekindled my desire to chase
adventure. It was a documentary following teams competing in the Eco-Challenge.
They biked, hiked, camped, survived, canoed, did orienteering, and rappelled.
It looked amazing!
The second thing that happened was terrifying. After walking
up a short flight of stairs my heart started racing and I could not catch my
breath. I sat on the floor, put my head between my knees but nothing seemed to
stop the weight that was crushing my lungs. I was slapped in the face with the
reality that morbid obesity is a
fatal condition.
I made an important decision that day. I wasn’t going to let
the deafening voices around me that said I was lazy, undisciplined, ugly, and
too fat stop me anymore. I was going to move forward. I wasn’t going to worry
about what others would think when they saw me exercising. They could yell
their cruel comments out the car window and throw their garbage at me, that
wasn’t going to keep me from enjoying the outdoors any longer.
I knew in my heart I was a capable and driven person and,
more importantly, that it was time to stop making excuses and to start living
my life.
Finding my own Adventure
Going to an aerobics class was not going to cut it for me. I
wanted to do the Eco-Challenge. However, I knew I had a long ways to go before
I would be healthy enough to endure that kind of physical exertion.
I started with walking around the block every day. The next
week I did two blocks. By the third week I started jogging. I made it 20 feet
before I thought my lungs would explode. Each week I continued to jog a little
more and walked a little farther.
When I started, being able to jog an entire mile without a
walking break was as insurmountable as climbing Mount Everest. So when that day
finally arrived, after what seemed like the stretch of a lifetime but was
really only a few months, I felt as though I was on top of the
world—unstoppable!
Adding an exercise routine to my daily schedule came
naturally. Diet changes, unfortunately, were much more difficult. Making
food choices was an overwhelming task. I wrote down every morsel of food that
passed my lips and measured every serving. I made most meals ahead of time and
stored them in pre-measured single serving containers. This took all the
guesswork out of the process.
Evenings were the hardest, being alone in my apartment with
food just sitting there in the cupboards, wanting to be consumed. The temptation
was too great. I started going to a coffee shop down the road carrying a novel
and just enough change for a cup of tea.
HOnce the diet and the exercise routine synced I began seeing
results on the scale. Encouraged by dropping a dress size and being able to run
an entire mile, I decided it was time to create my own Adventure Race.
I bought a used kayak and salvaged my 1993 Bianchi Nyala from
my parent’s garage. I stored the kayak at my brother’s house, which was down
the road from a boat launch. Every Saturday I began my day with a 1 mile run
through Duncan's Woods. Followed by a 4 mile bike ride to my brother’s house
where I dragged the kayak down the road and set out for a 30-minute paddle.
Afterwards I biked back home.
Redwoods in California |
As the weeks and months passed, I dropped more weight and
the distances in my “adventure race” grew longer and longer. I looked forward
to Saturdays when I could spend the day biking and paddling with the wind on my
face and the warm sun on my back.
Some weekends I’d drive to Ludington and explore the hiking
trails at the State Park or I would load my kayak on top of the car and drive
north to explore a new river or lake. Every weekend was a new adventure to be found.
I was at peace, I had finally discovered myself.
Chad and I |
Shortly after that I met my husband. He took me on my first
back-packing trip along Lake Superior and Pictured Rocks. We explored the
wilderness in northern California, wandered through the mighty redwoods and
tiptoed through a herd of wild Elk. We've hiked sections of the Appalachian Trail and I've ridden the whitewater rapids of the Rocky Mountain gorges. Two kids later, we’ve been living the
adventure ever since!
Mountain Biking
If you want to find out a little more about how I started
mountain biking and racing, you can read a short bio at the Grand Traverse Mountain Bike Association webiste.
3 comments:
Go Heather! You are doing Great!
Heather, wow, this made me cry. I had no idea. I can't wait to talk with you more about your journey. What a story, what a journey, and what an inspiration you are. And you're not a bad writer, either, young lady! So pleased to know about this blog, and to know you better too. Peace.
You have an inspiring story Heather! You've shown tremendous spirit and fight, and you've been diligent in living a life that makes your heart come alive. That's awesome! Well done... and yet, of course, your story still has much to come! By the way, Ludington rocks. My family loves that state park and Hamlin Lake... both sides of our family have places up there... it's our summer stomping grounds.
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